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I've decided to start adding personal updates to this blog as well as the usual surveys. I have already somewhat started doing that but I am now making it official.

Between work and doctors I haven't had time for working on surveys or pictures. I have over 3500 RAW images waiting to be pp'd!

Here's a health update- I have seen a neuro surgeon and a neurologist and I'm still stuck at square one. My syrinx is causing symptoms but the surgeon doesn't want to operate yet. And neither of them think my back pain is caused by the syrinx. But I honestly think it is. Granted, I've been getting most of my info from the net so who knows how accurate it is. But I do have a syrinx that was caused by trauma and the first symptom(according to Wiki) is pain. Among many other symptoms, which I do have. I must add that in both docs' defense syringomelia is a rare disorder(affecting less than 20,000 adults in the U.S.) so I wouldn't expect them to know much about it. I am seeing a second neurologist and hopefully he'll be more helpful. And if he isn't then the next step is to find a someone who specializes in studying syrinxes. I may have to travel but it would be worth it.
My pain management doc thinks a lot of my back pain is from the Fibromyalgia. I believe that the fibro is causing problems but back pain isn't one of them. At least, not the back pain that I believe to be associated with my syrinx. I'll explain more about that next time.
So anyways, I did my sleep study and I definitely have a sleep apnea. At one point during the night I stopped breathing for 40 seconds. My nurse said that she and all of the other nurses were gathered around my monitor waiting to see if I was going to start breathing again!
So now I wear a CPAP(or CRAP, as I like to call it) to bed every night. It's rubbing against the bridge of my nose and creating a huge painful red mark so I am going to return it tomorrow and get a new one. CPAPs some in a lot of different styles. Here's a pic of me wearing my CRAP



Anyways, all I've done is whine so far and I have more productive things I should be doing. So bye for now. And I'll try to get on here more often. Maybe ppl would actually read my blogs if I kept them updated lol!

How old am I again??

I got my MRI results back. I have a rare condition called syringomyelia which basically means that I have a hole/cyst going down the middle my spinal cord. If it continues to grow(which it should) it will eventually cause me to be paralyzed. And the only treatment is surgery to remove it.
And today I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia. Fibromyalgia is a disorder that causes you to be in pain almost constantly along with a bunch of other crappy symptoms.
And I have a herniated disk.
And I have degenerative disk disease.
And I have high blood pressure.

My doctor also thinks I might have a sleep apnea so when I go to bed tonight I have to wear some funky machine on my face.

I am only 23 years old! Wtf is happening to me?!?

For the love of horses!
This survey is all about horses! If you ride, own a horse/pony/mule, or
just enjoy these beautiful animals, than this survey is for you!
How long have you loved horses?:	since I was a kid
When was the first time you had the chance to ride?:	i think i was 2 or 3
What did it feel like?:	i'm sure it was fun
Did you/are you taking lessons?:	I took a couple lessons
Do you prefer english or westren (or some other schooling)?:	western
Why?:	you have a lot more options when riding western
Have you tried both styles?:	yeah
Have you ever jumped? What did it feel like?:	it's a blast!
Do you like riding on trails?:	yep
What's better-- a headlong gallop or a nicely controled trot?:	gallop
Have you ever been to watch a show? What did you think?:	they're kinda boring to watch unless you're competing
Watched a rodeo?:	I've been in rodeos
What do you consider a "beautiful horse"?:	Overo Buckskin QH with blue eyes
Why do you love horses?:	because they're awesome
Do you like their smell?:	yes
Do they cheer you up when you are blue?:	yes
How and when do they frustrate you?:	I used to have a horse that would balk when it was our turn to enter the arena, i'd have to get somebody to lead him in. that was annoying
Where do you ride?:	used to ride everywhere
Who is your favorite horse(s)?:	out of the horses I used to have i guess shorty would be my favorite
Why?:	he was a gentle giant lol
Which breed do you prefer?:	Thoroughbred
Why?:	They have great personalities and love to run
What colors do you like the best?:	Buckin, Grulla, Dun
Geldings, mares or stallions?:	gelding
Have you ever worked with a foal?:	yes
Ever achieved "join-up"?:	no
What are your feelings on animal welfare?:	more people need to get involved
What do you think about the PMU mares?:	All of those farms need to be shut down. There are alternative medicines that can be used
What should be done to people who neglect their horses?:	put the fuckers in jail
Do you like ponies?:	they're ok
Did you ride ponies when you were little?:	no
Do you use alot of gear (wraps, spurs, special reins, etc.) when you ride?:	yeah. I had a nice pair of reins with grips on them for barrel racing and an over&under. also used professionals choice bell boots and wraps
What is your happiest memory with horses?:	I don't have just one
Does you family like horses/ride too?:	not really. except for my uncle and cousin
How many horses have you owned or leased?:	8
Now answer questions about your current horse(s), whether you lease her,
own her, or are just in love with a particular horse.
Do you own/lease/love a horse or horses?:	I don't have one now so I'll write about my last horse
What are their name(s)?:	Shorty
What breeds are they/it?:	OTT Thoroughbred
Colors?:	Bay
Mare/gelding/stallion?:	gelding
How old?:	he was about 12
Diet?:	alfalfa and supplements
Favorite treats?:	don't remember
What are their personalities?:	he was a sweet horse but he could be difficult sometimes
How do you make your horse(s) pretty?:	lol
What do they like doing?:	he loved to compete
Are they smart?:	yes
Fast?:	oh yes
What are they trained in?:	He was an ex-race horse and I retrained him to run barrels. last I heard he was being used for h/j
Still in training? What are they learning?:	d/k
What do others think about your horse(s)?:	everybpdy commented on his size
What is their home like?:	he lived in a corral
Any toys?:	no
What kind of gear (bits, saddles, etc.) are they worked in?:	I think I used a hackamore on him. with a barrel saddle and tie down
Are they "cow smart"?:	no
What do they spook at, if anything?:	I don't remember him ever spooking
Describe how you got your horse(s):	bought him from some girl in riverside
Describe a special moment with you horse(s):	this one time when we kicked ass in poles
What are their registered names, if they are registered?:	he was registered but i didn't have his papers so i d/k
Won any ribbons? For what?:	lots.
Want to win more, or try and win some eventually?:	huh?
Do you love your horse(s)?:	yes
This or that:
Carrots or sugar cubes:	carrots
Leather halters or nylon halters:	nylon
Westren or english:	western
Helmet or not?:	no
Shoes or bare hooves:	shoes unless we're talking about a mustang
Mud or rain:	rain
Grass or hay:	hay
Alfalfa or oats:	alfalfa
Trails or ring:	trails
Lope or canter:	lope
Sand or rubber:	sand
Endurance or speed:	speed
Chestnut or bay:	bay
Arabian or TB:	TB
Wild or dull:	wild
Tall or short:	tall
Graceful or tough and hardy:	tough
Dressage or hunter/jumper:	h/j
Reining or roping:	roping
More horsey questions:
What horse-apparel do you own?:	none anymore
How much do you spend on horses?:	used to spend quite a bit on him
In medical bills?:	for me or the horse? lol
What kind of boots do you use?:	whatever
Saddle?:	a good quality barrel saddle, don't remember the brand
Bridle?:	don't remember
Anything extra?:	tie down
Do you like riding bareback?:	yep
What is you favorite thing to do with horses on a cool summer evening?:	barrel race
How many (human) friends have you made because of your love for horses?:	a few
How often do you ride?:	not very often
Do you plan on working with horses for the rest of your life?:	eventually, yeah
What is your favorite thing to do with horses?:	barrel race
Thank you for taking this survey and...
Happy trails!
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Bedroom

Do you have the following in your bedroom:

Condoms: no

Mobile Phone? yes

Chair/stool :no

Shelves: no

Computer : yes

pictures : yes

Mirror : yes

Skateboard : no

Surfboard : no

Smoke detector: no

piano/keyboard/Guitar/bass/drums: no

Bottle of water : lots of them

Medals/ribbons /trophies: no

CDs : yeah

Stop sign/any sign : no

Real gun: yes

Cigarettes : no

Pot : no

Any drug : no

Books : yes

Xbox : no

Playstation: yes

Gamecube : no

Wii : no

Gameboy : no

Stereo : no

Lighter : no




Repost as 'The Bedroom Survey'

Friday Fill Ins

1. On my laziest day I like to sit at home and surf the net!
2. Being at work makes me feel like I'm being productive.
3. I love little things my husband does for me and big trucks.
4. This summer I want to do a lot of hiking.
5. Boredom made me start my blog.
6. Red is ugly and orange is uglier.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to doing my nails, tomorrow my plans include working and Sunday, I want to go hiking!

Questions you aren't asked on a regular basis
When was the last time you destoryed something?:	purposely?.. i don't remember.
Do you get jealous easily?:	not with Scott because I trust him
Have you ever destoryed something because you were jealous?:	probably
What is your favorite font on the computer?:	comic sans ms
Do you feel like a dork because you know the name of it?:	no
When was the last time you made pancakes?:	fuck... probably back when i lived in sierra vista...
Have you ever worn a cape out in public?:	no
What's a song you've been listening to a lot lately?:	The Wings (Gustavo Santaolalla) Vocal Mix Club
Would you rather be in a gang or the mafia?:	mafia
Something odd that you are attracted to::	the smell of mud
Have you ever gone a day without eating? (religious purposes dont count):	many times
Have you ever had a near-death experience?:	I think so
Ever met an albino person?:	no
Have you ever had a breakfast food for dinner, or vice versa?:	all the time
Pick a number 1-900.:	spank-me
If you could punch one person in the face, who would it be?:	a dumb ass driver. doesn't matter which one.
Save the whales, or save the rain forest?:	forest
Divide the number you chose earlier by 6. What number is it?:	wtf?
Can you admit when you are wrong?:	easily
What was the last thing you took a picture of?:	a squirrel
Say something in a different langauge.:	¿que pasa?
Describe a day in which you were very happy::	right now. i have a job that I love, a wonderful husband, and my life is going great :) I feel very blessed
The last pair of shoes you wore?:	my black roca wears
What color underwear do you have on now?:	blue
What are you doing tomorrow?:	hiking
What's your middle name?:	starts with an L
If you could have one power what would it be?:	flying
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Friday Fill Ins

1. There is absolutely NO way you can get me to go bungy jumping!
2. Rain in place of snow reminds me that summer is almost here!
3. I cannot live without my husband.
4. Skiing and scuba diving are two things I'd like to try.
5. When life hands you lemons throw them away.
6. The parties my parents used to throw is my favorite childhood memory.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to going down to the river to see if it's flooding yet, tomorrow my plans include working and Sunday, I want to go hiking!